Extremely exhausted.

Hiya!

Let me share something with you. I am absolutely shattered. My energy levels are below acceptable. Social life, school, internship, the whole bunch is becoming more and more of a challenge with every day.

Ever since I got back from South-Africa my energy levels started decreasing ever so slightly but now they've reached an all time low. It's awful and it couldn't have chosen a worse time. I'm trying to graduate here?! Hello, at least be considerate?! No. Well I guessed so.

I'm starting to feel more and more tired and with that more and more useless. I'm even beginning to take a nurse approach on my own life. Control your activities, don't overwork yourself, make sure to rest before you over-exhaust yourself. Well it's too late for all of those. By now I can manage no more than one activity a day. And with a life like mine which hasn't much of a social life but volunteering activities all the more and a busy uni period; being able to do just one activity a day is barely possible. Three days a week I have to bee at internship, one other day is filled with 2 hours of education. The other three days are filled with my part time job, volunteering activities and sometimes even something social. However this leaves little to no time for the essays I need to write and damn deadlines are coming closer. 

In conclusion it's not wanted and neither is the timing of my exhaustion any good. So this week my mum (yes not even me, my mum) decided she has had enough of my endless naps and lack of motivation. It was time I got myself together again. It was time for a visit to the GP. Yay....

So there I went. I told the secretary I was there and then spent over half an hour waiting. Nothing unusual there for GP business. 

Finally, after almost falling asleep in my chair right there, the GP called my name. I stood up and followed her where she asked about my problems. Did all the general measurements as oxygen levels and blood pressure, she even shone a light in my ears. As a nurse to be this confused me because what would be in my ear that could make me this tired? Well she's the expert.

To cut a long story short. I'm going to be diagnosed with either a new physical disease and I pray to god not another chronic one. Or I'm suffering from too much stress and will need to start seeing another psychologist.

Pro tip I learned from this story: NEVER wait for over a month with physical complaints that might be the result of mental issues!!!! I'm now awaiting my blood results but I'm pretty sure it's the psychologist option that's going to be the result. 

What a worthless blogpost. I know but since I already visited the hospital for a blood test today there isn't really much else I have to offer.

I'm off to take a nap!

Lots of love,
ThatDutchGirl96