Sunday 16 November 2014

Childhood dreams.

Hello!

So last week was full of preliminary examinations. It was a week full of stress, procrastination, books, studying, failing pens, stress, headaches and lot's and lot's of reading and writing. Not one of my favourite weeks (duhhhh) but I managed to pass all of them, which I am super happy about. 
Friday after getting the results of my last examination all the knowledge I obtained over the last weeks drained from my brain. 

Just a little back story here:
Ever since I was a little girl I have had this weird thing with hospitals. For some reason I loved being in hospitals, not with injuries of any kind, no, just wondering around seeing the doctors and nurses do their jobs, trying to make people better, saving them.
At first I always wanted to be a superhero like most kids. Having the ability to fly or to become invisible or to create fire out of thin air. Defeating villains and saving the city, the country or maybe even the world!!! 

As a kid I was always outside doing weird activities to find out which or if I possessed super powers. Running super fast? Nope that's not it. Creating fire? Not happening. Invisibility maybe? Neither. Super strength? Ice powers? Weather control? Flying? No, nope, not happening. So eventually after trying every super power that popped into my mind I had to accept that I was not and will never be a superhero. 

Not late after I gave up my super hero dreams I ended up in the hospital for bad dehydration. That's where my new life goal was brought to life. As I lay there I had plenty of time to watch the nurses pass by and trying to make me and the other kids better. Amazing! In the eyes of little me nurses were super hero's too. Saving people every day or at least trying their hardest to make people better. Sometimes it was just too late.

Ever since that time in the hospital I have wanted to become a nurse. So when I graduated from a school of higher general secondary education (HAVO in Dutch) I immediately applied for a nursing course. When I heard that I had been accepted my dream finally started to become reality. This first step towards my dream becoming reality started in September 2013.

Unfortunately I had to drop out quite quickly. This was a decision I had to make for my own well-being. Last year has been a heavy year for me with lot's of ups and downs. I have changed for the better and learned a lot about my self and life in general. Throughout the gap year I took I have worked at a toy-shop which was sort of a dream come true. I've had a lot of fun working there and it has been an amazing experience. All my life I have been more of an introvert so it was weird, having to socialize with customers every day and constantly being talkative. 

I must say I couldn't have wished for a better place to work and develop myself into a more extrovert person. It was great working there for a year yet I knew I still had a dream waiting for me to make it become real.

And here I am. Attending the same nursing course I dropped out last year and up until this very moment it is going great. I am lucky enough to have an amazing group of students to work with and I have passed all of my first examinations!!!!
I am happy with who I am now yet there is still this dream inside of me. A dream that is slowly becoming reality and in four years from now it might even be my reality!

Lots of love,
ThatDutchGirl96